Nowadays we blog. No handwritten journals to tear up. Just a online, fully public account of our daily occurrences for the world to enjoy. Of frown upon. Either way.
Well, we finally made it back to Washington. I am beyond happy, of course. Matt always tries to look at the bright side of things but I have a much harder time doing this. So I choose not to, and instead tell anyone who asks how much I hated my time in California. Yeah, I liked the sun...who wouldn't? Know what I didn't like? The $5000 it cost just to get home and back for the holidays. Everyone's going to have things they value that differ from one person to the next. I value family. That includes friends I'd consider family, maybe even friends I wouldn't. After being in California for about 3 days I started realizing how much separation there really was. And as time went on it would just continue to grow. My mom was easy to keep in touch with which was good. But two of my best friends got pregnant once I moved and my heart stopped. I was beyond happy for them. Up to this point I had been the only "mother" and to know what great experiences were in store for them, both good and bad, warmed my heart. Being so far away though, made me completely...frazzled. I wanted nothing more than to be with the people I love and share this with them. But I had made the decision to be in California. I had began questioning this decision from that point forward. And it ate away at me from August til the day we left. I struggle with depression on a normal basis, and this situation was not the best for me. But I knew I chose to be there because of my love in my heart for Matt, so I had to tough it out. By the grace of god I made it. It was by no means pleasant. It was lonely and colder than you expect when you hear California. I missed my family and my friends every single second of every day. It was like prison. One word to describe California is "busy". Because the people there are SO busy! I finally began to become good friends with my coworkers, one girl in particular. She was my savior. Along with the rest of them. But her and I just connected, maybe over beers at Applebee's on our lunch breaks, or maybe not.
We moved back at the very end of June. With our almost six month old puppy, Dexter. He was an angel the entire 20 hour drive. He was truly the best thing we got out of that so called adventure. We live in maple valley now. It's been 3 weeks, and I must say its like our lives have made a complete turn around. We are SO much happier on a daily basis. It's so refreshing. It makes me happy seeing Matt happy and feeling happy myself. McKenzie hasn't had her baby yet, I'm convinced he was waiting for me.Jen had a beautiful baby girl, Jessy. I cannot wait to snuggle her. Jen's journey has got off to a rough start, bless her heart. But she is the most amazing woman I know, so I don't doubt that she is totally rocking it. My babies are spending the summer at my parents. I miss them so so much, but they are so very happy and that warms my heart. They have been taking swimming lessons. Lynaya is a natural fish and can swim like a champ, and she is 4! (Well for two more weeks she is!) Khyler is doing very well also, trying to keep up with his crazy daredevil little sister. He's such an angel lover boy.
And for now, life is good. We all have our health. And we are all within driving distance. For that, I am beyond thankful.
Until next time...
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