NovemBURR?

Well, it is now November. The warmest November i have ever experienced. Its going to be nice not having snow this year but i know the kids will miss it. I am so terrible about writing on here and I truly should give it more of an effort than i do. Since I last wrote much has happened. I accepted a wonderful new job with AT&T here in Gilroy. This means no more commute for me! YAY! Also, means more money and more time with my family which is the part i'm most excited for. I gave my notice to Nordstrom yesterday and my last day is going to be the 24th of November and i start at AT&T on the 26th. We had a fabulous Halloween. It's one of Lynaya's favorite holidays so it was so nice seeing her experience it. She was SO excited and i think she had a blast. It has already wore off, though. No one has even mentioned their halloween candy this week. Now its on to Thanksgiving! We are going to be staying here for Thanksgiving and having Matt's cousin Elliot and his Girlfriend Sara over so it will be nice. We plan on pulling out all the stops for our first independent Thanksgiving dinner so look forward to hearing how it turns out! My mom and dad are worried of course, ha ha. But I will show them!

Really trying to focus on being thankful and happy for all that is my life. I have been so down and felt so alone since moving. All the changes really consumed me and I began to lose sight of the joy and reason I wanted to be here in the first place. Life is good.

It only took me a decade

I finally got my act together and figured out how to make a beautiful header for this here blog of mine. So there you have it! Oh the little things that make me happy. Matt is of course the one I owe credit to for the title of this entry. Somehow, although he has never actually read/viewed my blog (that i know of) he knew that it has taken me a "decade" to finally get this done.

Anyway, we have had quite the crazy couple of weeks. Two weeks ago we went to Las Vegas to be with two of the most amazing people while they tied the knot! I felt so honored to be a part of such a special union. Mike and Jen are truly two of the most amazing people that I know. Jen is the kindest, sweetest, funniet, biggest hearted person I know. She truly inspires me on a regular basis. I strive to be more like her in my life. I have truly never known such a beautiful soul. She has an amazing story to tell that's for sure. She comes from many trials and tribulations. Which I think is what draws me to her so much. I have such a hard time not letting my past burden me and follow me to my future. And Jen does such a remarkable job of growing from what she has experienced in the past and what she knows and observes now, and applying it to the present. I want to one day grow to be more like her. She is truly an angel. Maybe an angel sent here to guide me in the direction i need to be guided. I know that my own mother is wonderful. But she lacks in all the ways that Jen thrives which leads me to believe she has come into my life to guide me to be more like her. It truly brings tears to my eyes when i think of how lucky i am to have met her. Mike will never know how incredibly thankful i am for him find this gem!

I cannot wait for these two to have children! They will be the most remarkable littles this world has seen. Hands-down! I have never met someone as strong as Jen, and i know that regardless of whether her mother is here to guide her in her journey to becoming a mother or not, she will dominate. I can not even think of what she would have to do to totally botch motherhood. She would have to do some real psycho shit though, and i know that is totally not happening. She will be fabulous. I want to be the fabulous that she will be for my kids, too. And that is what I will strive for, day after day. I am so thankful for her example.

On another note, I had an interview with AT&T last Friday. I thought it went really well! The job is hopefully going to be in Gilroy so i will no longer have to commute to san jose everyday. But there is a slight chance it will be in Watsonville, Capitola, or Monterey. I am crossing my fingers for Gilroy though! They called me on wednesday to ask me about my trip home for the holidays. I had mentioned it in the interview after he asked whether blackout days for all of december were going to be a problem. Basically they wanted to know how short I was willing to cut my trip. I explained that i was willing to do whatever it took I just wanted to be able to be there for Christmas Eve and day. That was on wednesday and i havent heard back from them since. :/ Needless to say, I am incredibly nervous now. I REALLY want this job! Fingers crossed.

Well, I suppose its time for me to go. I ended up starting a blog for Matt tonight per his request and killed a lot of the night doing that. Now i'm sleepy! Check out his blog though, he hasnt posted any entries yet but he insists he will!

www.patiomusic.blogspot.com

Goodnight world!

<3

S

Finally settling down

So things are finally beginning to fall into place for us here in California. I suppose that means I may have jumped the gun a little bit by deciding I hated California so early on. Don't get me wrong, it's still extremely bizarre here. It's just now since everything doesn't seem to be working against me I can finally enjoy what good there is. I've been working my butt off. It's difficult trying to manage both Matt and I's schedule around getting the kids where they need to be but we are managing. Khyler absolutely loves his elementary school and is really enjoying kindergarten. Lynaya just started at a new school today. It's in Morgan hill which is about a ten minute drive from our house. It's called Kiddie Academy, and is absolutely wonderful. The last place we had her in we enrolled her simply because it was inexpensive and she could start right away which was necessary since i had to start work. Needless to say, we got what we paid for and neither her nor Khyler enjoyed it at all. (khyler goes after school on days when we both work late) So its nice seeing Lynaya in a great place with good people and knowing that she is going to get a good jump start on her education! She also really needs the daily structure on a weekly basis.

On another note, we finally purchased our tickets to Vegas!! We go the 27th and it's coming so quick! I am so excited to be there with Jen on her special day. She is truly the kindest, most remarkable woman I know in so many ways. I love her dearly! She has such a warm, loving, and kind soul and I strive to be more like her! She really holds such a sacred spot in my heart. And Mike is just absolutely wonderful as well. I am so honored and grateful to know these two. Every moment I've witnessed of them has been a shining example of love in its purest form. I cannot wait to see what the future holds for my two amazingly great friends.

Matt and I are going to see Dave at the shoreline amphitheater this Sunday! I am so super excited! We had a mini Dave at the gorge showing from our living room on Saturday night in honor of labor day weekend. I naturally had a breakdown for about 30 minutes just because of all the memories it brought up and thinking of all that has happened and changed since. Dave will always be my most favorite musician in the world, and as time goes on more and more meaning attaches to it.

Calipaininmyass.

Well, we did it...

Somehow.

This move was not anything I would have ever imagined for myself or my family but we pulled it off. Matt was offered this job on a thursday morning in july and naturally accepted without hesitation. Naturally. He was to report to work the following monday to his new location in Gilroy, California! So exciting, Right? WRONG! I would have to say there have been about four genuinely exciting moments so far along this journey and each and everyone more bizarre than the last. It begins with dropping off the Budget rental truck and just goes up from there. I have run into just about every obstacle and challenge this "adventure" has on it's plate and I am exhausted. I have finally arranged for child care for the kids and have a job so that's a start. I am thinking things can truly only go up from here.

List of things to do in the days to come are:

1) Get my butt back to the docta so i can get this ADD back in order. (for both matt and myself...mostly matt haha)

2) Settle in at work.

3) Take a deep breath, several different times, on several different days to come.

Work in progress....

Matt's home!..Shots a callin!